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A Clean Getaway

October 26, 2016 By Carol Malkin 6 Comments

I’ve been on a tear lately. trash-3

Out went the years of credit card statements. The unused curtain rods. Cans of spray paint. The remnants of a previous career.

I’ve written about this before. The relief of discarding. Even my husband, the arbiter of cleanliness in our house, looks at me with exasperated eyes. “I just bought that.”

Still, I search closets, rifle through drawers, fill more bags with clothes for donation. The trash men must groan as they approach my house.

I know this is a stress reaction. The desire to control the uncontrollable. The ugliness in our country. The sense of violence that hovers just one provocation away.

My husband and I are not moving. There are no plans to downsize in the near future, and yet I feel like I must prepare for its possibility. Anticipate a catastrophe that my rational mind knows is remote.

Will fewer shoes make our getaway faster?

trash-2I’ve deployed all plausible rationales for this behavior. Flammables become unstable over time. Cans rust. Fumes leak. Translation: Fire!

And the boxes of old files in rough proximity to those aging degreasers? Imagine the conflagration!

Our community has cooperated in my mission. Free drop-off days at the dump. Shredding events. Hazardous waste disposal. As if they knew that a purge is the only cure for this overarching desire to flee. The truth is stuff makes me feel vulnerable. It needs to be protected. It needs to be easily located, always staying top of mind while my brain is trying to process how our country got to this point.

This no longer feels like the silly season. It becomes harder to dismiss the gulf widening in our country. The seeming impossibility for either candidate to bridge it. This time, I am more than concerned. I am frightened. Will the results of this election be accepted? Will the stoking of hate cease? Will politicians choose the greater good of the country over individual ambition? Is there something even more unthinkable to come before rational minds prevail?

I hear the words movement. Revolution. I remember when they were used to bring peace. Now they hint at hate. And war.

Still, there is too much stuff. Another rack of unworn clothing. Unmarked paint cans that require more investigation. Two more weeks to go. How many empty shelves will mitigate the stress?

And so I shed like a skin. Perhaps losing the outer layer will reveal not a thinner, more delicate skin, but a nimbler one.

I am going nowhere.

 

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Comments

  1. Annette Masling says

    October 26, 2016 at 11:38 am

    Dear Carol,
    I have really enjoyed reading your essays. What a great skill to develop. Hope the work on your book is progressing.

    Reply
    • Carol Malkin says

      October 26, 2016 at 1:54 pm

      Hi Annette,
      Good to hear from you. Thank you. I’m so pleased you are enjoying the posts. Yes, still working on the novels. Not a quick process. All my best to Joe.

      Reply
  2. June Kestenbaum says

    October 26, 2016 at 7:35 pm

    Really interesting idea. . .fingers crossed for a week Tuesday.

    Reply
    • Carol Malkin says

      October 27, 2016 at 7:32 am

      Thanks, June. Yes, feeling hopeful.

      Reply
  3. Jim remsen says

    October 26, 2016 at 10:51 pm

    And you live in blue country! Imagine purple, or red! All hope and possessions would be lost.

    Reply
    • Carol Malkin says

      October 27, 2016 at 7:34 am

      Thanks, Jim. Interesting article in the Times recently about how clustered we are with like minds. I’d like to believe I could find some commonality with super reddies, but this is not the moment to find out. Better to wait when tensions have cooled.

      Reply

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